Last chemo!

Today was my last chemo. It was a good day. I took a cake and a bunch of snacks for the chemo center. The cake was very festive and said, “IU Cancer Center: The nicest place I ever hated.”

They loved it.

I forgot to take pictures. Get over it.

Elaine and I got all hopped up on Starbucks and spent the morning talking non-stop. I think the room must have sounded a little like this: bssssssstttttttttssssssswwwwwwwwoooooosssssssssssbbbbbssssss.

I have to say, she is having a pretty stinky summer herself. Among other things, she was in a car accident Tuesday and her car was totalled. It wasn’t her fault and we both know the other driver! That’s not as strange of a coincidence as it sounds. She works at SMWC; I work for the SPs on the same grounds; the accident was near campus; and the driver was an SP.

Then, we went CRAZY and went to Best Buy and bought a bunch of CDs. I had two CDs I wanted to get to commemorate being the last day of chemo. I had to be a total cliche and buy a CD with Melissa Etheridge‘s “I Run for Life,” on it. That’s a song she wrote at the request of the Komen Foundation to honor Race for the Cure. I remember reading something from her where she talks about how she would go into this “dark place” when she was on chemo and there was nothing anyone could do for her. She felt very isolated from the world and she would just hold herself and ride out the pain. I know she must have been talking about Taxol.

I also have loved this group called “Five for Fighting.” Actually, I think it’s one guy. The web site only talks about one guy. Anyway, I love his songs. Recently, the words to the song “Superman” have really affected me. I’ve been hearing the song on the radio for a long time, but just recently started to notice the words. It was getting under my skin, so I had to look them up. I think it really describes how I feel when people tell me I’m brave or courageous. I’m just doing the best I can with the hand I’ve been dealt.

So, pardon me while I go all “high school angst” on you and put the words to the song in my blog here.

“Superman” – by Five For Fighting
I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me
I’m more than a bird…
I’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face
beside a train

It’s not easy to be me
Wish that I could cry

Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd…
but don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed

I may be disturbed…
but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream

It’s not easy to be me
Up, up and away…
away from me

It’s all right…
you can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy…
or anything

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside me
Yeah, inside me
Inside of me

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
I’m only a man
Looking for a dream

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
And it’s not easy, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm…
It’s not easy to be me

So, here are the CDs I picked out today. I’m such a girl.

* Greatest Hits: The Road Less Traveled by Melissa Etheridge
* Two Lights by Five for Fighting
* The Battle for Everything by Five for Fighting
* Retrospective by the Indigo Girls
* Smallville Soundtrack
* 20 Sing-Along Irish Favorites

I plan to go visit my brother tomorrow morning while I still have “good” time left. Then, I’ll probably be out of commission until Friday or so. Just think of me passed out in the middle of the living room floor on Percoset with all of the CDs blaring in the background. It’s almost like being in college again.

Author: rosie

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  1. WOW I ENJOY READING YOUR ARTICLE. YOU GIVE ME INPERATION. i AM VERY GLAD THAT YOU HAVE COMPLETED YOUR CHEMO AND ALL IS WELL. YOU SOULD AND SEEM TO BE HAPPY. IT IS A BLESSING.. GOD BLESS.. KEEP ON SMILING

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  2. I too am quite a fan of Five For Fighting! His lyrics are fantastic and I leally love his voice. I guess we just have great taste in music! ~ Faye

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  3. Hey! I’ll bring my percoset on Friday and maybe we could crack out some Jimmy Buffett or Edie Brickell! Then we could go burn up an SUV and come home and drink “natural Ice” or something cheap like that! It’d be a true college-like weekend.

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  4. While you were celebrating your last chemo (love the cake!) I was in Cleveland celebrating my grandma’s 95th birthday and my dad’s 68th birthday. We’ve made plans for next year when she’s 96 and he’s 69. August 4 was a big day! Keep on rockin’ and I’ll come to your 68th and 95th birthday parties!!

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